am not a Nihilist

All life is kurukshetra

"But what, then, is it that makes the difficulty for the man who has to take the world as it is and act in it and yet would live, within, the spiritual life? What is this aspect of existence which appals his awakened mind and brings about what the title of the first chapter of the Gita calls significantly the Yoga of the dejection of Arjuna, the dejection and discouragement felt by the human being when he is forced to face the spectacle of the universe as it really is with the veil of the ethical illusion, the illusion of self-righteousness torn from his eyes, before a higher reconciliation with himself is effected? It is that aspect which is figured outwardly in the carnage and massacre of Kurukshetra and spiritually by the vision of the Lord of all things as Time arising to devour and destroy the creatures whom it has made. This is the vision of the Lord of all existence as the universal Creator but also the universal Destroyer, of whom the ancient Scripture can say in a ruthless image, ''The sages and the heroes are his food and death is the spice of his banquet.'' It is one and the same truth seen first indirectly and obscurely in the facts of life and then directly and clearly in the soul's vision of that which manifests itself in life. The outward aspect is that of world-existence and human existence proceeding by struggle and slaughter; the inward aspect is that of the universal Being fulfilling himself in a vast creation and a vast destruction. Life a battle and a field of death, this is Kurukshetra; God the Terrible, this is the vision that Arjuna sees on that field of massacre. "


- the lord.

Every one's Arjuna . And the problem continues..............................................

paradoxical- Sadhana.

life's paradoxical, am taking a nihilist approach, life's meaningless, however meaningful you try to make it. Even if there were to be any meaning, any source that's driving us , it's too far away and concealed and distorted for the human in me to find it out in this short life span,

Success, joy, grief, ideas, principles, all nothing but some hazy methods to just live this fuckin life, there's no finality other than death in this life.