Time and Space; Rambling defenitions.....

they form a group for totally different reasons to

block themselve as a unit against the other forces [ that being the best of the cases!!!]

but even that is not a great enough motive or cause for the communion of the future, which will be dynamic and all inclusive and which will know the true joy of working and real progress. i know all this knowledge comes from arvind and you and i only

repeat it in my own poor words like a parrot.

should rather look into my own stuff. sorry maa.

for staring at you with kinda of an intensive rage

look suggesting that my nerves explode when i see

wrong forces in action. only shows my weak

nerves.you are great maa. offering my lower stuffs

to you please take them up and lift . kindle the

primordial fire maa,in your name,by you amidst

these difficulties.

maa ps's back and running thanks for all the help

in the demoreel and website preparation maa. Hope

to sharpen up on my brushing skills a little more

and then start applying for the jobs every where

around the world.. maa please dont restrict

.......... am safe by you,did i get a glimpse of

the moral strength yesterday by the side of the

girl. the Hanu-Man thing. If so thanks for the CW

lesson. will carry it forward with the other cw

lesson that the simple child like trust is close to

be realized. maa call you maa. all people say and

also feel the same that the body looks very lean

and weak perhaps due to all these struggles but

does the external frame even matter in this

sacrifice to the Lord. Just show me that straight

road to you maa... but should walk that in full

strength and with no history baggage or history

totally seen in the new way that it actually was moving towards this road in all its details. Ok maa.

"one can set the direction but not the exact point and time [ Time and Space you see] where one wants to land by.." - Gopi is this statement true.  But it seems to have a temperorary relief , when the mind is vague without an idea of what it wants him to be  or do, but something sends a kind of protest to suggest that this is defeat in Time and Space if one accepts this statement to be true. And so i say and keep the fire still burning for the total expansive, broad freedom yet non deviating or non dispersing approach towards freedom. This being the goal in the external field, and it also being the original idea with which one began this external pursuit and that which has been the guiding light from maa, every step of this heart way.

Usual rambling: the problem with following the heart is that you also have to be answerable to the mind and body.not just your mind but the universal mind and i dare say the universal body [cos i dont know if there's any like a cosmic body] in ignorance. and that has created a lot of start stop problems.But ultimately you were there to  recover and toe.


Rambling is being defined as of writing or speech) Lengthy and confused or inconsequential.

...but some of the writings in this blog are lengthy but not confused and inconsequential. the lengthy part is a necessity to bring in multiple contradictory but simultaneously thriving thoughts in the mind.


and yes maa i realize the time factor in some of the plays. you ask me to play. and thanks for the tennis  session wilson that was your presence and reply to my earlier post.

Player?!?!!!!!!!!!

Maa you call me Player in the forces and invite me for the play in the world...... and then only to be ignored. Even putting them in Jail is better it seems ignoring is worse than that. i fail to understand my lack of impact anywhere. Dont fit in any where. dont belong nowhere. neither do i want to fit in or belong. Am getting into serious reluctance and udasinta. Not another call from my side, can you expect. You come in people dreams . you are like light and sound effects show . you appear in visions to them . where the fuck are you for me..... fuck you maa......

recovery and interchanges..

maa while recovering from dis- ease unable to keep the will and fire and there is a slumber and then the slackening of the will. Bay is the goal maa....... but Bay is soooooooooooooo far or so faaaaaaaaaaaaaar..... but finding out the problem areas...the combination of them in bringing the dis-ease........ dealing with people, the interchanges with them.... maa ..cant keep it pure but the balance of giving and taking can be tried....that lady...........but then she quotes you guys and then acts like queen bee..........or is there really experiences so convincing and overwhelming like that is it????? amazing.......i know pain i know can define sorrow better, slumber without confusion, than i can this delight of yours.... but accept ......this confusion this uncertainty as the certainty of guidance of the LORD TOWARDS AN ABSOLUTE UNION with him.at all levels........ there has never been time to even, contemplate on these spiritual experiences... many have happened ....but none is enough for the demands that Life poses before one. Music maa , Rahman maa his technicians  in India gives hope .....  sorry maa for shitty talk to that lady...and that rape talk with momathy...... the interchange  i told you goes bad from time to time thing is cant make people understand without using strong metaphors.....other than these dont have an idea what goes on the subconscious.... with ..the ....... and the future in the physical remains a nagging question........in the form of pain.......compression.....slumber.......incapacity..........the acces to that universal energy .......will you grace me with that on a constant basis in the future. Please maa.........prayers to you and forgive me for my strong language with momathy and that Lady.....