maa - help please

.....then this arbitrary decision of the "mind effort" not in integration with the other parts.

 and now apart from the petrification becos of the arbitrary decision of the mind[without taking into account the other parts of the being], this added fear about the future in which yogic concentration will once again be under threat of.....mechanical activity..... or not possible or subject to the same unfavorable surrounding, and another fear that this kind of inner Life cannot be lived by making a choice for money [ for the dependant parents].  and that is where this guy the fanatic of the idea enters to stop the abortive result of the spiritual effort, ends up in ****..

the universal life

maa the universal Life......... and thanks for the help, in various ways and forms and toeing me..... a little drop of your grace maa, destinies change.........wtf is win the faith . maa now let me use  some of this energy ......at your service . And one saw all the hidden problems of people  out in the open. But the Lord glitters through all this debris.........may his little victories bring peace in their lives........and peace and and an integral progress in mine.

Inner proportions and the external events

. maa if i walk towards you, you run towards me, if i run towards you, you fly towards me, if i think about you, you are already there, and if now at this point there is an interchange of trust faith whatever you call it... at all three levels what is there that i need to do.... any further?  OK, missed an important point EVEN IF one BREAKS DOWN, mate still toes me uphill. HaHaHaa...

Maa i have been ripped off pride and my sorrow seems to be that am not able to use the ripped-off stuff  to connect with people....at the physical... and the future stuff at the physical isn't there yet and it's a work in progress, this proportion is testing me........at work and the same follows me everywhere. It seems like the interchange at the physical needs to start happening more fluently and with power and become close and understanding and ....help maa......diet.... energy.......power.....force......then capacity.....sacrifice for the spiral dynamics......