datelines and timelines..........

yeah why would i be with you if my battle is not yours and you end by lecturing me on the rarity for a human being to have all those qualities to win his idealogy. supramental is also a form of ideology and  it is not about qualities , it is about my interaction with the environs and your guidance in it...... here my interaction is sick and your guidance is non interventional to say the least.....and the best.....thanks for the deceptions... family  problems.... .. nagging pains.....delayed and all the dubious helps...and then the total insults,,.... citing the same dateline and timeline in which these helps were showered on me.... wonderful divine to follow.....

Highest Aspiration Vs. the realities......

maa even as i move towards mastery over the self, mastery over the environs over the unviversal forces seems difficult and that is where i talk of these levels of difficulties that look interminable as they keep their relentless hold on Life through these petty tyrants.....Now this is a serious test of equality especially when one is in attachment and in a family set up like me..save me ......detach me ... from all this maa.... as the world 's got  still a lot more work to move towards you which i was wrong, for a while, to believe it was doing well, all i see in the world around me is  dullness fear chaos, confusion, resistances, mere material pursuits.. masquerading as leaders and mocking, jeering and ignoring other efforts..... and the positive experiences i have from time to time confronts these negatives and the mind is baffled.... it is as SA puts it a bitter contradiction that the mind feels and gives up the effort....

Is the world around me then a part of my Karma or is it just reflecting my own self , i refuse to believe it is the Latter, as you and i know very well  we have been together in this process... for long..... might have not been absolutely sincere but honestly there hasn't been any that we haven't tried or stopped .......or v haven't quit yet......

levels of difficulties- equaltiy sadhana yoga Life.....

maa are these levels of difficulties that the mind feels confounded. Becos to think of this in terms of a video game like thing is a bit stupifying and boring . But having played one of these video games got a feeling there must be some similiarity and yet there is something very different progressive and may be vast here at play that i dont understand completely........ yet......maa let faith increase and may you be the victor in My Life.......now isn't that my highest aspiration....??? yes yes yes.