THE ANTAGONIST IN ME DOESN'T ACCEPT THESE ALMS THROWN TO ME BY LIFE,AND THEN CALLING ME STABLE AND SUCCESSFUL AND SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE ...... I WANT TO THOROUGHLY REJECT LIFE. ( just as i typed the previous thought, a colleague here asks me if i want to play Lottery!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
WHAT IF LIFE THROWS THE RICH ROOF AT YOU, WILL YOU STILL BE SAYING THE SAME.........NO.......SO........THAT NEGATES YOUR PRESENT STATE OF MIND; IT IS NOT EVEN VAIRAGYA BUT SOME KIND OF LOWER MIND REACTING TO OUTSIDE STUFFS......and that thought continued for a few days and Life lead me to a film called saath satth, where the protagonist starts out like me as an idealist, but later out of pressure from the world forces consents to the worldly "Blind Barrel Roll". The film ends with an end Note that felt like a slap on my Life, "Love is not Looking at Each Other but Looking in the same Direction." And then the familiar night and its downfall...........the best part of everyday is the brief night time walk one takes alone in an isolated path after a day of playing and remaining ready for the Social and economic games....when will Life change towards True Love, towards walking with the Truth and Love....
