harmonize

now i thought and i said to the lord, what do all these aquaintances, friendships,relationships one has had in life at some point of time, mean, if they become so meaningless and so divergent ...... to the point that there exists no common ground of shared interests anymore, no decent conversation more than a hi- bye is possible, i mean i agree that these were not the perfect relationships they were more of like time pass and like travellers in a long-long journey, i guess, but then what causes this ackwardness, i think that is the question i asked the lord, when i sort of complained to him,

i thought it's better to ignore them than do this totally unnatural hi-bye thing, c'mmon we've had a lot more of shared life, shared interests be it in anything as trivial as porn or cricket or movies or studies and thus still were, of some decent interaction in life at that point of time.The cruelty of time is how i saw it , i do not know how to establish or re-establish these old relationships,

or do i need to move on to newer places newer people newer grounds is that what something's telling me, or is it, that the mistake i thought was that of time is actually mine, like may be in the way i look at these things

or is it the financial uncertainty i live in under the preent circumstances and that i have to put my financial, material life on stable grounds and then may be i will get a proper perspective of these,

i mean some of these friends are married and they got kids settled, and am kind of feelin like an alien trying some wierd stuff in life, with an enthusiastic optimism . this cruel hi - bye thing, i mean i dont understand this. what's the truth perspective of this, it's something lord, i would like to experince in life,

my guess is i will understand and be more confident among my old friends once i get this financial stability. i agree and i take responsibilty for this acwardness in aquaintances and relationships, may be my friends could play more proactive role in getting rid of this ackwardness or i dont know man but something better can happen in life than this hi-bye thing.

a little more understanding of each others' life and a natural harmony as a result of it. lord man it is my humble request to you to set this part of my life , right, in order with the truth, along with the all things that are being worked out. lord make me more confident and make me independant,[ ha-ha and this is independence day!!] lord i love you and i trust you. Om Namo Bhagawate. the day the light was born again on August 15.

kingfisher

this guy showed me an important attitude to work a few days ago, we had our garden all dug up by a fellow[ he did an incredible job!!!, reminded me of what sri aurobindo said "better for you to be a fine shoemaker than an inefficient king"], and what happended in the process was all the worms came on to the top soil. So now enter The King, [ i dont know how he found it out] he made himself comfortably perched on top of the fence, and boy did he make use of the occasion. one hour passed, my mom and the neighbour were talking next to it, and the fellow was fearless he was there for his stuff and he didn't mind any one. some times he would climb up on the tree to get a clear picture, but he stayed right there made full use of it, what still amazed me was the fact that none of the "crows" were to be seen, they weren't showing any interest, if they knew what this bloke was after am sure they 'd have made a nice meal of it as well, but lo' the effort this fellow put up was one of patience with stubbornness, he had the enterprise to find the fertile place, and once he found the place, he settled there and like he spent 5-10 minutes for a worm, in that frequency, i understood why the crows couldn't see the occasion, in fact one of the crows flew right over and gave him a thumping on his head, and lo Mr.King fisher was still there, he would have caught like 5-6 worms and gobbled them all. Fantastic. And a word about the gardener, what a fine job he did, reminded me of Sri Aurobindo said - " better to be a fine shoemaker than an inefficient king".

Mr. King fisher Lord thanks mate your play is the only one am interested in. Mitra make me see, give me shelter. fantabulous. HaHaHa. what took me so long to record this i dont know. here we go maa...............