your movements are too complex for my mind to understand and vital and physical to follow. I thought could sip a cup of coffee relax and pursue the task oblivious to the impending economic situation wishfully thinking it will be taken care of. It is an attitude in line with a particular situation that i came across a year ago.lets say the attitude is a result of the retrospective analysis and understanding i arrived back then. Tried to apply the formula blindly.Whats more important in life, it seems is the dynamics of speed than being committed to a particular slow speed or fast pace, all life, leading you nowhere.
End was a shock whip lash to my whole stuff from my mother one fine morning. The whip i guess is something of a message from your side, distorted in the lives of human beings, and their way of echoing it, suddenly out of nowhere, and my lack of dynamism to keep up with your movements...... maa this is tough, but i realize the importance of the spider analogy and hopefully you will get to see an instrument made of light.
Sunday, May 27, 2012
Saturday, May 26, 2012
the spiritual age
Sri Aurobindo - The Human Cycle - The Advent and Progress of the Spiritual Age
For before the decisive change can be made, the stumbling
intellectual reason has to be converted into the precise and
luminous intuitive, until that
again can rise into higher ranges to overmind and supermind
or gnosis. The uncertain and stumbling mental will has to rise
towards the sure intuitive and into a higher divine and gnostic
will, the psychic sweetness, fire and light of the soul behind the
heart, hr.daye guh¯ay¯am, has to alchemise our crude emotions
and the hard egoisms and clamant desires of our vital nature."
if only i had this intuition maa i wouldn't stumble, i didn't ask for it because i thought every thing that happens in my life has your sanction. am in no position to be working for intuitive faculties, too dangerous in this style of economic living. shit . all collapsed. the necessary fieldwork for the things predicted by sa are hardly here but these events in my life are asking for these faculties........ so question is why you give me situations that you yourself would have struggled if you guys were with your family. Thats why i guess its safe to be away from family and practice this yoga inside your ashram environment an environment designed with a specific fabric to suit your vision, not the hostile or opposite environs i live in. you both. Answer me and don't give me these lectures on spiritual ages, for which am not waiting, your sincere sadhaks can do that. you will always find another one.
today my mother asked me to stop and get out. you let me down before people. she said that before this father guy, from whom i was trying to protect her. Now she has asked me to pack my bag for reasons economic.why start something when it couldn't ever be completed on time...... well people live in time and are bound by it......time is also money. the whole thing i did looks like the perfect self deception.
For before the decisive change can be made, the stumbling
intellectual reason has to be converted into the precise and
luminous intuitive, until that
again can rise into higher ranges to overmind and supermind
or gnosis. The uncertain and stumbling mental will has to rise
towards the sure intuitive and into a higher divine and gnostic
will, the psychic sweetness, fire and light of the soul behind the
heart, hr.daye guh¯ay¯am, has to alchemise our crude emotions
and the hard egoisms and clamant desires of our vital nature."
if only i had this intuition maa i wouldn't stumble, i didn't ask for it because i thought every thing that happens in my life has your sanction. am in no position to be working for intuitive faculties, too dangerous in this style of economic living. shit . all collapsed. the necessary fieldwork for the things predicted by sa are hardly here but these events in my life are asking for these faculties........ so question is why you give me situations that you yourself would have struggled if you guys were with your family. Thats why i guess its safe to be away from family and practice this yoga inside your ashram environment an environment designed with a specific fabric to suit your vision, not the hostile or opposite environs i live in. you both. Answer me and don't give me these lectures on spiritual ages, for which am not waiting, your sincere sadhaks can do that. you will always find another one.
today my mother asked me to stop and get out. you let me down before people. she said that before this father guy, from whom i was trying to protect her. Now she has asked me to pack my bag for reasons economic.why start something when it couldn't ever be completed on time...... well people live in time and are bound by it......time is also money. the whole thing i did looks like the perfect self deception.
Monday, May 21, 2012
Future
there is dichotomy between the three.
the vital gives its strength the mind is a receptive instrument without too much use of intellect and logic, the body endures endures endures this is the way to the future......
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