lost

When the work you do is on other people's money and time, are you still insisting on sadhana in life. Becos in such an instance I don't find the divine when and where I need it yet I have to be answerable to people. Sacrificial llamb for the difficult things in life, the lamb needs to develop equality like muscles so you can taste its rewards thro death.

in betweens

maa mere pain and fear should not come between us. i seem to be going towards the goal talking and taking small steps, i wonder if you could even call these steps. couldn't i have rather said - nothing should come between us. Maa the reign of ignorant Nisha is there in Life. i do not know how to go through this major girl in Life. All the world's mischief may be hiding in her. It is a difficulty that is asking for a certain way of Life. Where is it or how can one bring that way of Life, i put these queries to you now that one is getting ready to go out . Sometimes there is a feeling that to have asked the above question and found an answer to them one should be fit for the divine and whether one deserves this Luxury or this opportunity to be one with the one,  in the physical. Something seems like mocking by pointing out at desire and that unless the transmutation of this desire soul occurs and fear and ego consciouness banished from Life , the cycle of ignorance will keep recurring.  Help me maa.