rajas-tamas-saatwic- Beyond....

maa an incident happened today that on reflection showed me how the world works.The poor calf needed help and i was there watching . Did what i could.  A few  days ago was put in a situation where, had to drag a derelict drunkard close to the tracks from getting  run  over. Meanwhile the battle with the mosquitoes continues. Maa cant believe you are with me in this physical fight. How can D who's so high and conquering be involved in such insignificant obscure battles that i give up often. Maa how can i work  without physical pain. maa submit to you this particular problem ....

astro-loger

maa when i study nowadays it's like BB is like a

mountain that is too high. the grounds that he had

covered are not for mortals .How can anything

significant be done maa.  maa looking at the sheer

details of the effort is now enough to suggest, that cant

come upto THAT LEVEL at all. It's not possible to do

Yoga in this detail for me in this Life. i think of

buying ice creams for parents and watch TV on the net

listening to some actress talking about her bourgeiose

LIFE. What is this MAA. No new knowledge is being

realized in Life. Maa it's all still.and slow. any new

inner knowledge.work is where this knowledge will arise

from within. But maa it demands that work be done as per

its demand and not according to the normal bottom up

approach.  If something is done in the old way it is

either done painfully. or is subject to interruptions .

More frequently should one feel the full force at

work.Then we can arrive at some point where BB will pick

me up and send him across his path. Marriage and all

that seems not compatible with me. And astroleger's

prediction..... evertything's in your table maa. HA HA

HAA.

maa- is this what it is ?

you are not ready

preparation....

10 years......

gita yoga.......

desire lust. vital impurity, physical-

incapacity,imprecise error-prone mind.

bases of yoga......establish...

harimohan.

family, people is where HE's worked out.

beware of marriage.

be aware of selfish tendencies..

powercuts, moneycuts, timecuts, the way of the works 

made difficult........

may be to force the right thing.......

....to move more into art than the other things.

or to realize that even great career, great art is

incomparable to D. It seems so...... yes.....it is

incomparable or everything else is feeble and weak  and

like a mere bubble ride flying, before the truth in Life

and in body.

and then in time integrate into full yoga . .......even

in the physical...