temporamandibular joint problem

i dont know whether to laugh or cry, or what, lord, man , what r you askin me to do??? why all these problems in SLEEP????? strange !!!! u r asking for surrender in sleep activity!!!! Mitra, trust you man. Let us see.

Why doesn't efforts come to a finality

Struggle, struggle, struggle..................all the way.................... am getting impatient and angry at the voice that says you are impatient, fuckin work place again,[ nth time in my life] interrupts the way i learn stuffs, and the perrineal problem of earning a livelihood [added pressure of marriage and PROPERTY] fuck u all morons for putting pressure on me like this, while having this need to grow organically in my own pace and manner. Its brutal squeezing that requires absolute perfection at all levels to face it. Bloody lord, dont even dream i'll do this the day i no longer need to do this, all my communications with u will stop.

Absolutely useless forums.

Why would discussing about the inner struggles of nature and their manifestation in outer life be such a taboo in all the forums online related to aurobindo and the Mother. They quote, quote , and keep quoting without an attempt to explain how or what they had quoted has actually been materialized in their life. or what's the problem with nature they are facing right now.

Animal Instincts

While in the day one can pretend to ignore them, gloss over them, they are quite ruthless in the night....... when there's hardly any mental control. Will some one say to me what's the whole point.???????? Ok not just desire , can other stuffs like fear, narrowness, jealousy, be also worn out of my nature and i can be FREE!!!!!!!????????????? Can i be another man? Or is it like how that Karmayogi says, exists only in fiction. And Mother offers that to you.

these were the things one had to handle while keepin one's aspiration for the divine, and a career in sight,

Recurring neck trouble;

constant fatigue;

worn out eye trouble;

long standing knee trouble;

demand for physical activity amidst these troubles;

call for sacrifices from petty pleasures in life;

sacrifice desire; total detachment ;

Put it simple words all nagging physical pains and pleasures; all the problems from outside; both together;

Total lack of will to fight;

impossibility of the task hits you at your face, with not even a hint of a success at a nearby future, and total zero vision of one's possibilities in "THIS LIFE" brings the so called sadhana to a grinding halt, once again; something pretty strongly suggests that one is not made for the spiritual life's demands, ok [ no difference in spiritual ordinary idea being] , but this no difference theory calls for detachment from even the family, and how does inevitable event like marriage[ which one is bound by for the family] reconcile with these demands, i mean how can one do these things with a woman who will hardly know what my life is. Million dollar questions which no person can answer apart from an empty call for battle without expecting anything not even the final result.

Solliye aganum [Amazed]

If am sincere, that which escapes defenition does organize life in its finest little details. Patience and Faith greatly facilitates this process. pray for the speedy removal of desire. Jai maa ki.

for mr
ok so the struggle in Sadhana continues as the way seems all like an obscure maze but hope and reassurance tells me it's all part of the game . Talking about game, cricket's what am upto these days and check where i got to play the game . This is Shiva's place and denotes the struggle with tapasya that am facing in Sadhana. The game was a test of physical endurance something that's being worked out right now in Sadhana. Vital and Physical endurance. Mom's with me. And me with her. Jai maa ki.