anjani-putra

Maa no one in the physical except for the little muscles in triceps and a scratch in the left knee knows the thing that happened on the foot of the hills yesterday. the flute carnatic performance was on...... 10 ft. by 15 banner [ ..tons heavy] would have come crashing onto the chairs and possibly hit some electric things on the way down or hurt some one, in comes the force, and the lean guy gets up and the force acts full, to put it back or to atleast hold it till further help comes. Instrumentation Maa.  And then today, this stunningly precise lesson on Honesty,and the balancing dynamics...... is it an indication of the condition necessary for the future dynamics. What you will maa, i write my economic will in your name, for you.......

let all the turmoils find their way to you...........maa.

agal bagal

Thanks for making me understand the past. the expression of which escaped  me for some reason, it sprung up from within like a memory recollect. tHE PRESENT IS LIVED , BUT WHAT ABOUT THE FUTURE , IS it in IN FAITH ?  WIN THE FAITH. There is always more to these than mind can figure out. But these are difficult times maa, in the end it is harmony and peace and hope that matters for the individual. agal bagal maa baby cat maa please maa.....

crash down

faith has come crashing down. putting me in a depressive state. what's this, who's will are you following. guess it 'd not have made a difference to the divine, whether i worked in a call center or spent my time doing art or become a 3d modeler......while it makes all the difference in the world to my mind. why you may ask....

i followed 2 quotes from SA' APHORISM
1] care not for time and success

2] Even if you dont have the means still act, it is only by acting that thy capacity increases

Literally put this into operation in Life..... and so you see this created an explosive combination or link between their yoga and Life as it existed for me in the world, with my family, environment, personal history and personal capacity.

now i see that one is being ignored, left incomplete without  any support or sustenance or furthermore encouragement for the things one has done in the world.

This also casts a huge aspersion on my fitness to take the spiritual path in the future.

Therefore am stopping all communication until there's some help and clarity and more importantly a definitive call from above and within.

maa you said there is a time factor for the play but not an abandoning or disbanding or lack of encouragement or a helpful push  in Life for the endeavours..........

answer my questions if you want me to stick around and cling to you.......

it doesn't help dubbing everything i done so far as works for the sake of passion and not guided by reason or any higher stuffs, as i seriously believed that 8 out of those 8 works had some input from the higher things.....and i have no way of confirming this "but you can confirm this",and help me in the physical plane towards a job...... nevertheless i find my whole approach towards the divine very dubious and unsustainable.

i find my mind in no position to counter this absurdity of position even for a second, it breaks up the will spontaneously. mind in confusion. no enthusiasm. no energy. no will. total revolt.

Time and Space; Rambling defenitions.....

they form a group for totally different reasons to

block themselve as a unit against the other forces [ that being the best of the cases!!!]

but even that is not a great enough motive or cause for the communion of the future, which will be dynamic and all inclusive and which will know the true joy of working and real progress. i know all this knowledge comes from arvind and you and i only

repeat it in my own poor words like a parrot.

should rather look into my own stuff. sorry maa.

for staring at you with kinda of an intensive rage

look suggesting that my nerves explode when i see

wrong forces in action. only shows my weak

nerves.you are great maa. offering my lower stuffs

to you please take them up and lift . kindle the

primordial fire maa,in your name,by you amidst

these difficulties.

maa ps's back and running thanks for all the help

in the demoreel and website preparation maa. Hope

to sharpen up on my brushing skills a little more

and then start applying for the jobs every where

around the world.. maa please dont restrict

.......... am safe by you,did i get a glimpse of

the moral strength yesterday by the side of the

girl. the Hanu-Man thing. If so thanks for the CW

lesson. will carry it forward with the other cw

lesson that the simple child like trust is close to

be realized. maa call you maa. all people say and

also feel the same that the body looks very lean

and weak perhaps due to all these struggles but

does the external frame even matter in this

sacrifice to the Lord. Just show me that straight

road to you maa... but should walk that in full

strength and with no history baggage or history

totally seen in the new way that it actually was moving towards this road in all its details. Ok maa.

"one can set the direction but not the exact point and time [ Time and Space you see] where one wants to land by.." - Gopi is this statement true.  But it seems to have a temperorary relief , when the mind is vague without an idea of what it wants him to be  or do, but something sends a kind of protest to suggest that this is defeat in Time and Space if one accepts this statement to be true. And so i say and keep the fire still burning for the total expansive, broad freedom yet non deviating or non dispersing approach towards freedom. This being the goal in the external field, and it also being the original idea with which one began this external pursuit and that which has been the guiding light from maa, every step of this heart way.

Usual rambling: the problem with following the heart is that you also have to be answerable to the mind and body.not just your mind but the universal mind and i dare say the universal body [cos i dont know if there's any like a cosmic body] in ignorance. and that has created a lot of start stop problems.But ultimately you were there to  recover and toe.


Rambling is being defined as of writing or speech) Lengthy and confused or inconsequential.

...but some of the writings in this blog are lengthy but not confused and inconsequential. the lengthy part is a necessity to bring in multiple contradictory but simultaneously thriving thoughts in the mind.


and yes maa i realize the time factor in some of the plays. you ask me to play. and thanks for the tennis  session wilson that was your presence and reply to my earlier post.

Player?!?!!!!!!!!!

Maa you call me Player in the forces and invite me for the play in the world...... and then only to be ignored. Even putting them in Jail is better it seems ignoring is worse than that. i fail to understand my lack of impact anywhere. Dont fit in any where. dont belong nowhere. neither do i want to fit in or belong. Am getting into serious reluctance and udasinta. Not another call from my side, can you expect. You come in people dreams . you are like light and sound effects show . you appear in visions to them . where the fuck are you for me..... fuck you maa......

recovery and interchanges..

maa while recovering from dis- ease unable to keep the will and fire and there is a slumber and then the slackening of the will. Bay is the goal maa....... but Bay is soooooooooooooo far or so faaaaaaaaaaaaaar..... but finding out the problem areas...the combination of them in bringing the dis-ease........ dealing with people, the interchanges with them.... maa ..cant keep it pure but the balance of giving and taking can be tried....that lady...........but then she quotes you guys and then acts like queen bee..........or is there really experiences so convincing and overwhelming like that is it????? amazing.......i know pain i know can define sorrow better, slumber without confusion, than i can this delight of yours.... but accept ......this confusion this uncertainty as the certainty of guidance of the LORD TOWARDS AN ABSOLUTE UNION with him.at all levels........ there has never been time to even, contemplate on these spiritual experiences... many have happened ....but none is enough for the demands that Life poses before one. Music maa , Rahman maa his technicians  in India gives hope .....  sorry maa for shitty talk to that lady...and that rape talk with momathy...... the interchange  i told you goes bad from time to time thing is cant make people understand without using strong metaphors.....other than these dont have an idea what goes on the subconscious.... with ..the ....... and the future in the physical remains a nagging question........in the form of pain.......compression.....slumber.......incapacity..........the acces to that universal energy .......will you grace me with that on a constant basis in the future. Please maa.........prayers to you and forgive me for my strong language with momathy and that Lady.....

maa - help please

.....then this arbitrary decision of the "mind effort" not in integration with the other parts.

 and now apart from the petrification becos of the arbitrary decision of the mind[without taking into account the other parts of the being], this added fear about the future in which yogic concentration will once again be under threat of.....mechanical activity..... or not possible or subject to the same unfavorable surrounding, and another fear that this kind of inner Life cannot be lived by making a choice for money [ for the dependant parents].  and that is where this guy the fanatic of the idea enters to stop the abortive result of the spiritual effort, ends up in ****..

the universal life

maa the universal Life......... and thanks for the help, in various ways and forms and toeing me..... a little drop of your grace maa, destinies change.........wtf is win the faith . maa now let me use  some of this energy ......at your service . And one saw all the hidden problems of people  out in the open. But the Lord glitters through all this debris.........may his little victories bring peace in their lives........and peace and and an integral progress in mine.

Inner proportions and the external events

. maa if i walk towards you, you run towards me, if i run towards you, you fly towards me, if i think about you, you are already there, and if now at this point there is an interchange of trust faith whatever you call it... at all three levels what is there that i need to do.... any further?  OK, missed an important point EVEN IF one BREAKS DOWN, mate still toes me uphill. HaHaHaa...

Maa i have been ripped off pride and my sorrow seems to be that am not able to use the ripped-off stuff  to connect with people....at the physical... and the future stuff at the physical isn't there yet and it's a work in progress, this proportion is testing me........at work and the same follows me everywhere. It seems like the interchange at the physical needs to start happening more fluently and with power and become close and understanding and ....help maa......diet.... energy.......power.....force......then capacity.....sacrifice for the spiral dynamics......

of changed tastes and changing landscapes....

Earlier a little {D} boy changed my habitual taste maa . Past few days were a call to rise above hate even amidst difficulties and the Vishnu assuring me the Lord doesn't  forget any of his things, and the christ man and the call to mom-mathi what's that maa....maitripurna maa.

hachi.....

...ko, hachiko..... the loyal-love, chemistry along with the food.... that is what every dog the love and the loyalty and the unhindered attention that is brought with these 2 qualities are the things which humans cherish.. both these work together to create an emotion that is not the complete truth and a complete union, yet a reflection of the moon that is truth. may be the dog had union at the level of the physical but at other levels ..... but then it was its limit and within its limits it had done what other dogs may not have or have had the opportunity to do..... but it did have some separate traits that were distinct. God showing himself to the human civilization the importance of this particular quality ......you maa are my goddess and am your son.maa the master and the dog shared a common life  orientation...... do we have one such in the future.... maa cos it seems like that it is quite indispensable at all levels to share the orientation.......see maa our thing is also lacking in the other levels... am with you in the mental level..but  that is missing at the vital physics....and  so it comes down quite frequently as a tragic hachiko story where the master has deserted the guy....maa.....


maa interesting that dogs and i dont know any danger.Lady Dog and i feel secure by your side......


maa hawkeye and i share  this that we face an existential crisis and drop dead without you. the principle is there in me....but i cant give away my other dog qualities maa, dogs warn, search and rescue thro their keen olfactory senses....have done all that.... maa dogs are messengers and soldiers- maa you know me.... please maa grace me the dogopi and develop him into something else...please maa ...it is only you who can break limits in life and widen the horizon, dogs cant do that maa.... i keep loitering around stations and buses and temples and cities and theatres and library and internet and 3d  and 2d..... the same old familiar places where i had contacts with you where i discovered your presence... just like Hachiko...Now it is time to discover more maa.... come on....... Maa and please do check out the Savitri Prayer video i did, it doesn't have the mood inducing music like in yours but nevertheless read it with meaning........

cruel

maa your direction for me to do sadhan in this manner

smacks of extracting unfair labour from a human, who is

under terrible limitations and restrictions and

resistances. If you say it is the D who is going thro

all these then there is no more argument, but that is

self realization isn't it? But then how does one go

towards the self, if this monthly exist-tense keeps on

repeating endlessly. Calling it a spider web and that

one will arrive at something seems like an implausible

argument that i have allowed into my system of beliefs

to logically counter the effects of monotonous

repetitiveness of the effort without any external

result. Or am i the case of Hari Mohan , who has got to

wait for several births to attainment. It makes me

cringe.... this whole process.how slow and repetitive

and obscure and imperfect,impure,insulting,painful,

drudgery, cruel, and what not ........

narasimha

maa apart from the physical difficulty that i complain of.....and the 100 social, mosquitoes..... the real thing that makes it difficult is not knowing which station to board the train and which station to de-train in work. This trust  its development leave it to you maa,   ....maa there has to be a bringing of Life in tune with your movements despite these difficulties........sorry for the perversions, but  maa am sure your will is the only thing that has any sustaining substance.victorious vijayalakshmi . This is sooooo mental..but maa do you mind.......cant always keep it layers deep. this was the depth, the most external in which i was in the problem, and from that zone with the illuminated truth voice of that zone, one expresses the understandings , maa practice...but maa say eeeeeeeeeeeee............ you...... go.........................   EGO. One more time i saw the operation of the routine world activity being guided by the higher....... and the Lord Narasimha, maa ................. i dont know but could feel it.........

utseya

Maa, would i be right in this kind of  reaction to the present  difficulties.........

Lion Utseya Lead......

Prosper Utseya Progress..........

Fly Utseya Widen........

Guard Utseya Heal........

Love Utseya Serve.......

laggard

maa who or what gives or has given me this feeling of laggard. this is the primary contributor to all my slips and falls. the way of Life is it, what it is . something that wears down over the passage of time.? this is part of karma?. the choice of a spiritual life made difficult, unlike some others who get a personal invitation from the guru with their Life nicely set up for this and with just a little touch of their guru and a will of theirs, their Life quickly gets into the straight mode to the divine with all these mental, physical attachments and mental physical exigencies taken care of..But there surely must be pros and cons to even this lucky and happy situation people find in their Life. It is not necessary to leave the world you say, i know why you say that.Bases of yoga.

guidance seeking....

maa outward going Life vital, is what i saw in him, right or wrong i do not know. the will behind and above also i do not know. But the synchronicity there, was not of a normal type. it seemed more like a vital formation of fear and misunderstanding and unnecessary complications .

maa hope you forgive my nindastuthi.Sadhana, work, mosquitoes, the physical difficulties, maa cant see them  as one maa. seek your help to see them as one..... or bid some of these difficulties.... good bye.

Maa and this nervous sensitivity to the opposite from time to time in the middle of these difficulties leads to an acute awareness of Dbl-Consciousness and then to insincerity and fall.

rajas-tamas-saatwic- Beyond....

maa an incident happened today that on reflection showed me how the world works.The poor calf needed help and i was there watching . Did what i could.  A few  days ago was put in a situation where, had to drag a derelict drunkard close to the tracks from getting  run  over. Meanwhile the battle with the mosquitoes continues. Maa cant believe you are with me in this physical fight. How can D who's so high and conquering be involved in such insignificant obscure battles that i give up often. Maa how can i work  without physical pain. maa submit to you this particular problem ....

astro-loger

maa when i study nowadays it's like BB is like a

mountain that is too high. the grounds that he had

covered are not for mortals .How can anything

significant be done maa.  maa looking at the sheer

details of the effort is now enough to suggest, that cant

come upto THAT LEVEL at all. It's not possible to do

Yoga in this detail for me in this Life. i think of

buying ice creams for parents and watch TV on the net

listening to some actress talking about her bourgeiose

LIFE. What is this MAA. No new knowledge is being

realized in Life. Maa it's all still.and slow. any new

inner knowledge.work is where this knowledge will arise

from within. But maa it demands that work be done as per

its demand and not according to the normal bottom up

approach.  If something is done in the old way it is

either done painfully. or is subject to interruptions .

More frequently should one feel the full force at

work.Then we can arrive at some point where BB will pick

me up and send him across his path. Marriage and all

that seems not compatible with me. And astroleger's

prediction..... evertything's in your table maa. HA HA

HAA.

maa- is this what it is ?

you are not ready

preparation....

10 years......

gita yoga.......

desire lust. vital impurity, physical-

incapacity,imprecise error-prone mind.

bases of yoga......establish...

harimohan.

family, people is where HE's worked out.

beware of marriage.

be aware of selfish tendencies..

powercuts, moneycuts, timecuts, the way of the works 

made difficult........

may be to force the right thing.......

....to move more into art than the other things.

or to realize that even great career, great art is

incomparable to D. It seems so...... yes.....it is

incomparable or everything else is feeble and weak  and

like a mere bubble ride flying, before the truth in Life

and in body.

and then in time integrate into full yoga . .......even

in the physical...

dog

    The dog is the symbol of devoted affection and

obedience.

Then only can the psychic being fully open when the

sadhak has got rid of the mixture of vital motives with

his sadhana and is capable of a simple and sincere self

-offering to the Mother. If there is any kind of

egoistic turn or insincerity of motive, if the yoga is

done under a pressure of vital demands, or partly or

wholly to satisfy some spiritual or other ambition,

pride, vanity or seeking after power, position or

influence over others or with any push towards

satisfying any vita desire with the help of the yogic

force, then the psychic cannot open, or open only

partially or only at times and shuts again because it is

veiled by the vital activities; the psychic fire fails

in the strangling vital smoke. Also, if the mind takes

the leading part in the yoga and puts the inner soul

into the background, or if the bhakti or other movements

of the sadhana take more of a vital than a psychic form,

there is the same inability. Purity, simple sincerity

and the capacity of an unegoistic unmixed self-offering

without pretension or demand are the condition of an

entire opening of the psychic being.

Keep faith in your spiritual destiny, draw back from

error and open more the psychic being to the direct

guidance of the Mother's light and power. If the central

will is sincere, each recognition of a mistake can

become a stepping-stone to a truer movement and a higher

progress.


maa do you realize how confusing this sadhana of yours

is, when i read the dog thing. am at a point when every

part of my mind is under pressure from various quarters

,money time people world,to make the next move for money

success progress and make it up for all the difficulties

one faced. Enter this message warning not to be tossed

away by all these and other forces. professing fidelity

and the right attitude. the line between these two

forces the world forces as they exist and the spiritual

forces , is very thin as per your sadhana. if i had gone

to some one like shankara and buddha the line was big

and clear. so this being the case is it not your

responsibility to show me the right action the right

things in life, instead of always leading me by denying

me things delaying me,putting me under strain citing

the difficulties in nature as a preparation, and all

this negations. always.

all this makes me come to a conclusion that all these

works that one has taken up in this life is a mere

pretext for arriving at the divine . And so it is futile

to expect the divine to uphold all this and reward the

efforts.just a pretext for the meeting with the D. This

being the case it is now just a case of freeing oneself

from all chains and bonds of this life there is nothing

more to be done on my part other than wait for this

important part to happen. but even for this to happen,

it seems one has to keep the fire burning inside, and in

all parts in this Yoga.otherwise it seems one is in the

danger of drifting to faithless indifference .and hence

d comes up with the vision of DOG to remind me of this

danger and to say are you ready. do you have the fire

burning for me exclusively for the things to  happen.

and my answer is a confusing jumbled words of

circumstances and history. not a clear fire of the sun

but a smoke obscured impure fire. dont know what is the

destiny that awaits me. Hopefully some major things will

change for me to move closer to D.


my only hope is some thing changing in the basic

orientation of my life. that would save me from having

to fight death forces like this. Instead one takes up a

zone and just makes sure one collaborates according to

one's capacity without interferences, reducing atleast

this waste.

BB is always right maa

no matter how lucid i explain my difficulties and justify the lower life by these points, finally you get to see the grand operation of the "D" in its unobstructed vision, it's direct sight, working out the whole  as against the relativities with which man/'s occupied.  success for BB in this mode of life is a success for the whole world.

BB

ego, vital, physicalconsciousness, environment,

these cant be worked with wrong priorities, even in the physical

family life is incompatible with Mother's AGENDA .Didn't know these

when i started out.

Yoga in a set up like that of big boss.deep in, is a manhole where the

soul is trapped, Inconscience, incapacity,  animal precedents and then

on the outer we have people with a frame called Humans.all around

us.And then they are made to dig deep in these layers from which an

occasional light or gold is struck. religions and sciences are formed, from this

dole out. And then comes associations by affinity to be safe  and

secure on these  dole outs. The earth it is made of this, and out of

this it is trying to emerge and why did i try to know all these. But

then ignorance is bliss only if you have the strong besides you

otherwise, its through suffering that god seem to be getting this done.

all this knowledge, have not come by subjective analysis of words but

have made themselves be known by Life itself ofcourse words act like

compass to the mind, for perception.

waste

maa am not yet fixed up on the big things in life meaning clarity is not there as to how one's current life with family fortunes will turn over into a full fledged pursuit. no clarity on that big question. i have muddled enough with the smaller details. no more of it . no point with muddling in the smaller details . you have as much responsibility to fix up the big things, as the responsibility you demand from me of ego and the need to go beyond all modes of ego.

complain

if i let myself expressing or practising expression with clear words of what i understood, without the aid of  "QUOTES" it is being called trying to impress the public. Glory to the public, and its LEADERS.....GREAT GOING.  why would i try to lie and impress. Isn't a dialectic possible

maa give these

in todays context, look at this child spirit asking in such a spirit, for world things maa, in the near future, please maa , isn't this chamakam something like man when he first realized the value of him being on earth and also the presence of d and the need to manage dharma and help the movement asks in all eagerness - for all these world things with an honesty like child; asking the divine.

deep

"if you dont understand deep sleep you cannot know the nature of death." maa what was this. give me the strength maa, to endure........and maa what do you think of dig-hold-stretch as an axiom for the current situation as i see it as a way to meet the challenges posed by work in sadhana.please maa free me of all those karmas and release me into wideness on all fronts in life. please maa , help.

India

stereotype they say of this, yes, but i see real play here maa, more closer to your current play that is in operation in the lower zones, the obscurity, the ill trained, poverty, of the parts of the being. The mind and the intellect sees one and the play being in its element is another. what the mind sees as bad and failing, ugly, is in fact god winning by losing and moving on. And that is perhaps happening here in India more than anywhere

i felt patriotic.But this patriotism is not practical, for these people deserve better guidance, better vision and better knowledge in life as i certainly see the mental potential, it's just that a better something should guide instead of this blind force. Governments themselves cant see beyond the surface and give and can only help superficially. what they need is something else.

 i see a man resorting to selling liquor, probably has a drinking problem too, but he has this history of falling in love with a girl of a lower class and she is physically challenged, so what does one make out of this story. yes probably he's been beaten by passion but the god in his play and an element of the principle is winning, another guy, scavenging for gold, yes the mental view is you dont have to live like that , sure, but again an element of the god winning .

there one could see. It is a stereotype of India. But the way the west feels and the way i feel after watching this is totally different.the way my urban countrymen see this and i see this, is also different.

 If anybody feels for these fellows after watching this and feels fortunate for himself he is probably blind. If some one watches this and reacts with total disdain then he's probably blind as well. If some feel uplifted and inspired by these fellows he's probably being emotionally blinded. the only right way to look  at these would be a thorough examination, in the light of the inner principles at work here.

Another guy sells pirated books , yes, probably a little bit of an escapist, saying he cant do 9-5 jobs. But isn't it part of the higher vision to put man out of this misery of having to work like a dog to earn his living. yes i understand that many people have this need to work 9- 5 it helps give their soul a structure, to work itself out. Yes i understand that and so am willing to participate in the non-sense, if it is for the greater good and if that is what the god wills for me in the present situation, no problems to dog it out, when my fellow mates lords have taken upon the burden of the nature in such unassuming fashion. Sure there could have been some playing of the emotions for the camera some for the gallery, but the stories and their lives in general are not played up, it was there to see, the realities in which the soul lives.

 To sum up, the inner principles i saw in this were Divine LOVE, Divine LABOUR, Divine  ENTERPRISE & FREEDOM, Divine Fulfillment. The outer points everyone is making here is egoistic, blind-half blind, and sheer emotional.

People in the upper strata Urban India feel superior , and think a lot about themselves without acknowleding the structure and fortune they have had.

Atleast in the west people have a false sense of sympathy but what some of these urban Indians display is a false sense of ability and security, both of which are wrong but seem to be the standard reaction. And in me i found an affiliation to the blind struggle and suffering, translating itself into patriotism.

what is all this maa.....

i saw the beast within outside.let me give you a description , one wretched, trashed, thrashed by two drunkards. kicked brutally, and stamped on the face repeatedly for some flimsy rebuke. Took the romance out of life. didn't matter that i was safe . But these ugly things.  Beastly, Hatred, lack of light, something maa, please maa,  am not blaming those three little wretcheds, even i have these and "remnants" of them in various forms continue till this day......,  but there's something, some kind of thing, some people, supporting these things indiscreetly, or indirectly or unconsciously. responsible for this. LIGHT MAA.LIGHT.........LIGHT MAA, LIGHT MAA,LIGHT MAA,LIGHT MAA..... i watched the horror helpless unable to understand, the meaning of it . Victimization, and you live with people who feel they are victims and despair over the world. And the fortunate unconscious others who bemoan them as beasts and evil and lunatics, and the conscious ones who goes into contemplation inside . Its all there. Only that in none of this does one see a solution or some kind of true sight .  It is Ugly, and inside one sees the same thing... suppose one watches a part weak incapable, slumbering then one gets upset that all plans are upset and that it is no use "you weak fellow",chastising the lord  and then the same "victim and the victimized" and fight or lack of peace with the centre. one has got to support the weak fellow it seems even when your own strength is not there up yet and not thrash or trample on him when he is already suffering, he is weak and suffers from incapacity . Lessons for the vital and the body today the physical consciousness, i mean.  And then the subconscious state became clear, of this father guy in life and some unpleasant memories kindled and the parallels to this incident made me question God and his injustice in my Life as well. So you see, victimized, here, Alas i got the message " Forgive to Forget" . Thanks Maa.. help me progress. Individual salvation is always there but maa, this particular thing is universal...... it will not go away without a strong action by you.

curing

curing the evil and ugliness. Ideas and their origin maa thanks.

clearer

mom's voice is clearer and clearer and clearer like she's whispering in my eyes.......the sound is like a sight clearing the vision through the words.......dispersing the negative understandings........

And then what do i say of gomaa's trust and hope,  says her son will also do good and the news will be just as well communicated......