this is my record of yoga or lets say the grand struggle..

just when am finding commonalities described in "the conversations with P" am once again going through night stuffs amidst a swarm of mosquitoes. As i start a movement of will to get rid of sexual desires am swamped and drowned by a whole bunch of lifestyle habits, mostly in relation to the lower parts of my physical and vital. This also activates the subconscious during waking hours making me feel tired and lacking energy.
And the throwing up of the sex stuffs into the dreams and my immediate environs is happening with grand precision and effectiveness[naked visuals, voyeur forced onto my house window] enough to make use of my lifestyle and knock me off. This is in conformance with what i read often. But when will it end, one does not know. when will one take the straight path to the divine... one does not know, ....
And so i accept the circumstances as they are and resolve to work in them with humility.
am making an idea that, i got to start using more of work as a tool to fight in the present circumstances, especially now with the knowledge about the truth of the Works in the world [ "the long jump analogy by mother", "1971 conversation with P"]

sub-conscious

inside,outside,above,Below,within, without . Below is where I've stepped on and see that it's a whole world of effort to be made ... prayers to maa.......