mistakes and lessons

more important than realizing one's mistakes and lessons is "Remembering" them when life presents you the set of challenges.

The distinction between a mental control and will is getting clear. you find these the hard way at night through repeated situations. But the will is missing in or am not aware of it when it's there during sleep time.

All that am aware of during sleep is the inner beings large hidden surface nature.

other than these am unwilling to diclose a few mutual symbols between me and the d, for as i told they are mutual and each one's got to find his own with the D. life leads to the d, this is my hope and my source of motivation to meet all the challenges. the work takes time for sure............ not for the impatient and those who dont have a need for this perfection .

Agents of division - saying no to their game; this has to be done with no sense of division between the known and loved ones and the so called outside world, for as it seems clear all are one and the divisions are blurring, it's all a big scene set up i dont know for some great purpose.