Sin

 Maa,

i have to be very careful with what i ask from you, always remaining conscious of every little element of my concurrent Life and actions in it. That is very clear to me. Either you or Krishna always putting me onto Knives' Edge, with regard to my nature and its ignorance and limitations.

Today was a shock that my mind will not forget for the rest of my Life. For lack of clarity as to what symbolic lesson it imparts me i try to see it from all points of view.

My own cruelty was magnified and shown to me. My Austerity of Beauty was put into focus.

My nervous weakness , physical incapacity and lack of  some affinity or experience in the Physical was exposed. Mooladhara was put into focus. My Austerity of Physical Power was put into focus.

The cruelty of the Life that i lead, putting Utilitarian objectives in the front at the cost of even Kindness in Life.

feel like the King Ashoka  who quits the world after the WAR...