laggard

maa who or what gives or has given me this feeling of laggard. this is the primary contributor to all my slips and falls. the way of Life is it, what it is . something that wears down over the passage of time.? this is part of karma?. the choice of a spiritual life made difficult, unlike some others who get a personal invitation from the guru with their Life nicely set up for this and with just a little touch of their guru and a will of theirs, their Life quickly gets into the straight mode to the divine with all these mental, physical attachments and mental physical exigencies taken care of..But there surely must be pros and cons to even this lucky and happy situation people find in their Life. It is not necessary to leave the world you say, i know why you say that.Bases of yoga.