recovery and interchanges..

maa while recovering from dis- ease unable to keep the will and fire and there is a slumber and then the slackening of the will. Bay is the goal maa....... but Bay is soooooooooooooo far or so faaaaaaaaaaaaaar..... but finding out the problem areas...the combination of them in bringing the dis-ease........ dealing with people, the interchanges with them.... maa ..cant keep it pure but the balance of giving and taking can be tried....that lady...........but then she quotes you guys and then acts like queen bee..........or is there really experiences so convincing and overwhelming like that is it????? amazing.......i know pain i know can define sorrow better, slumber without confusion, than i can this delight of yours.... but accept ......this confusion this uncertainty as the certainty of guidance of the LORD TOWARDS AN ABSOLUTE UNION with him.at all levels........ there has never been time to even, contemplate on these spiritual experiences... many have happened ....but none is enough for the demands that Life poses before one. Music maa , Rahman maa his technicians  in India gives hope .....  sorry maa for shitty talk to that lady...and that rape talk with momathy...... the interchange  i told you goes bad from time to time thing is cant make people understand without using strong metaphors.....other than these dont have an idea what goes on the subconscious.... with ..the ....... and the future in the physical remains a nagging question........in the form of pain.......compression.....slumber.......incapacity..........the acces to that universal energy .......will you grace me with that on a constant basis in the future. Please maa.........prayers to you and forgive me for my strong language with momathy and that Lady.....