sincerity

man i lost it, with it, i'll find everything, one single act of sincerity is more powerful than a thousand word. one even gets a response in the physical [ in one's body when this is at it's maximum potential]. i know it, but yet i lose it, and i fail to endure, and lose my enthusiasm,

i guess one should also know one's limits as far as the physical stuff one is made of is concerned, there is a disparity and i forget to be conscious of my physical stuff, or over do it, it has to be taught something, for it to keep pace with the rest of the being, this will need some scientific outlook to the intake of food and sleep habits, and in general it's conscious training, but before all that one needs sincerity by a truck load. maa give me the substance called sincerity. am just wandering here and there maa...... help please.........

just as an afterthought, i found this quote on the net it says -

“Sincerity is not a test of truth - It is possible to be sincerely wrong” well i ask maa if this could be true in my life, well she 's already said that one needs to be miraculously sincere, and that was not to discourage but to tell you the fact, that we do things with a sense of adventure, here to do the difficult things not the easy ones, but being "sincerely wrong" is just an excuse, for escaping from the hardwork. [ i know it, cos' i've tried that quite a number of times, and it hasn't shown any special light for me to walk the path, it is always, only sincerity that has shown any semblance of hope in life]. man i complicate so much for that simple sincerity. sincerity to be with you, not to feel that you are with me, but just the sincere aspiration the highest i could do in this life to be with you,, the highest of my aspiration should organize my life. sincerity is about giving and being receptive i guess , ok enough of the talk. walk the talk. will you?????