ask thee

I ask thee ....  having consciously or subconsciously sought power and victory invoking you and taking what you have said as guiding light , I find myself subjected to immense difficulty and often times due to this emphasis on power and victory which seem to have taken place in a kshatriya spirit, I am unable to reconcile this aspect of my nature without a positive response or conclusion . It makes my spirit saddened to hear of those talks on psychic prana and the desire soul and the straining....... for whatever I have done has been amidst strain pain nervous ,  it puts a stop sign on an entire way of life of being without any help and a concluding and reconciling response.