Battling the world forces

always thought i was battling the forces at a safe distance but unfortunately didn't realize that they could invade very easily throuh fathers and mothers any time.Being a rebel and the safety of being rebel........ i liked it... but now i realize what i question i must also battle becos i had made a connection and unconsciously or consciously asked for it......

3 have been my battle elements..... unrefined intellect represented by traditional old safe types, and the reason and bright intellect that is arrogant thinking it is the leader. These two will inevitably come into clash in this world in the future. Because both have not a clue about their inadequacy and the need for bold endeavours.

physical resistances samskaras subconscious  impure mixtures, to further worsen is the bad food intake which SA calls the annam.

vital impurities prana in the nervous and those feelings close to the body........


So having a precise idea about what i lack and my inadequacies shows that my preparation or the basis of Yoga which mom talks about is wider than most who profess they follow SA.

No one not even this blog knows my entire journey. As this blog contains mostly only my sordid ramblings and rants. Let me digress a bit and state the key inner elements that made me take the path i took.

1] i have been living in the SUBLIMINAL worlds.oFCOURSE THEY are NEITHER PURE OR REFINED. many instances have been seen before hand in this time zone before they happened on the actual physical plane. Example saw my grand pa's medical and physical condition 3 0r 4 days before he was admitted to the hospital ofcourse could not grasp the meaning of the symbolic image of him in a strange loin cloth which turns out to be the the diaper he had to wear for his suffering condition in the hospital. suffered along him  with my own little tooth aches and bleeding gum problems.....

2] i have a belief that i have made access to and if encouraged could break an important block in the intuitive plane.  So have been living in this intuitive plane on a frequent basis. But how far have been mislead in this zone in my works  in what SA calls could be the  the intermediate zone remains to be seen in the future waiting to get more clarity on this...........

3] Have had access to higher knowledge and seen them in action live in Life not like others intellectually discuss these things...........cosmic consciousness..........

4] Mom has i believe introduced me in all these mixture to the Ascent and descent experiences, i fail to understand her wisdom in doing this to a boy who has such troublesome Life finding a firm footing in the world and a troubled parentage.


Now having gone thru these and more what i need for further progress is a stable foundation and an increasing clarity of the self experience and realization aspect. shall take up any path whoever offers me in this direction in the future of course only after am done with this Family thing.


Until then IT 's a break to SA and Mother in my Life.