need for stoic equality and saatwic vision of knowledge

readin SA  on Equality where he states the tamasic equality, rajasic equaltiy, Stoic Self Discipline equality....now if i read that in relation to my Life.. to which category do i belong or am i trying to move towards the final large equality of the Yoga based on....." the saatwic vision of knowledge, at its
root the aim at self-realisation and in its steps the ascent to the
divine Nature."

 to look more into these in his own words...........


"........The tamasic unwillingness to accept the pain
and effort of life is indeed by itself a weakening and degrading
thing, and in this lies the danger of preaching to all alike the
gospel of asceticism and world-disgust, that it puts the stamp of
a tamasic weakness and shrinking on unfit souls, confuses their
understanding, buddhibhedam˙ janayet, diminishes the sustained
aspiration, the confidence in living, the power of effort which the
soul of man needs for its salutary, its necessary rajasic struggle
to master its environment, without really opening to it—for it
is yet incapable of that—a higher goal, a greater endeavour,
a mightier victory. But in souls that are fit this tamasic recoil
may serve a useful spiritual purpose by slaying their rajasic
attraction, their eager preoccupation with the lower life which
prevents the sattwic awakening to a higher possibility. Seeking
then for a refuge in the void they have created, they are able to
hear the divine call, “O soul that findest thyself in this transient
and unhappy world, turn and put thy delight in Me,” anityam
asukham˙ lokam imam˙ pra¯pya bhajasva ma¯m."


" ...As the tamasic inward recoil is a
generalisation of Nature’s principle of jugups¯a or self-protection
from suffering, so the rajasic upward movement is a generalisation
of Nature’s other principle of the acceptance of struggle and
effort and the innate impulse of life towards mastery and victory;but it transfers the battle to the field where alone complete
victory is possible. Instead of a struggle for scattered outward
aims and transient successes, it proposes nothing less than the
conquest of Nature and the world itself by a spiritual struggle
and an inner victory."

"....The tamasic recoil turns from both the
pains and pleasures of the world to flee from them; the rajasic
movement turns upon them to bear, master and rise superior to
them...."

"......the Stoic ideal seizes upon this point of departure and makes it
the key to an entire liberation of the soul from subjection to all
weakness of its lower nature...."


"....The Stoic self-discipline calls desire and passion into its
embrace of the wrestler and crushes them between its arms, as
did old Dhritarashtra in the epic the iron image of Bhima. It
endures the shock of things painful and pleasurable, the causes
of the physical and mental affections of the nature, and breaks
their effects to pieces; it is complete when the soul can bear all
touches without being pained or attracted, excited or troubled.
It seeks to make man the conqueror and king of his nature.
The Gita, making its call on the warrior nature of Arjuna,
starts with this heroic movement. It calls on him to turn on the
great enemy desire and slay it. Its first description of equality is
that of the Stoic philosopher."

But the Gita accepts this Stoic discipline, this heroic philosophy,
on the same condition that it accepts the tamasic recoil,
—it must have above it the sattwic vision of knowledge, at its
root the aim at self-realisation and in its steps the ascent to the
divine Nature. A Stoic discipline which merely crushed down
the common affections of our human nature,—although less
dangerous than a tamasic weariness of life, unfruitful pessimism
and sterile inertia, because it would at least increase the power
and self-mastery of the soul,—would still be no unmixed good,
since it might lead to insensibility and an inhuman isolation
without giving the true spiritual release. The Stoic equality is
justified as an element in the discipline of the Gita because it
can be associated with and can help to the realisation of the
free immutable Self in the mobile human being,........and to status in that new self-consciousness,......
“Awakening by the understanding to the Highest which is beyond
even the discerning mind, put force on the self by the
self to make it firm and still, and slay this enemy who is so
hard to assail, Desire.” Both the tamasic recoil of escape and
the rajasic movement of struggle and victory are only justified
when they look beyond themselves through the sattwic principle
to the self-knowledge which legitimises both the recoil and the
struggle."


these have to be the next  movements in my Life....if i continue to do this rajasic equality thing you know what he said you are an unfit soul trying to escape from the tamasic recoil which would have devastating consequences for the consciousness.........in Life...... But with my attachment to mom and family and works, doubts assail me and i understand and come to conclusions about my capacity in Life......... got good mental consciousness to grasp and infer from them and comprehend; good mental faculty but the soul stuff is not ready.............probably that's y Pavitra's  been suggested name....... good and ancient mental consciousness that can absorb these age old foundations of spirituality......but the soul is not yet ready perhaps and thats why ending up with these ugliness all too often fighting, porn, struggle, petty victories, defeats, setbacks delays all these dominate my Life......And spirituality is like a crutch support for these inadequacies...not the sole pillar like how it was for that Lad Prahalada, for Lord Narasimha would have taken care of this fellow Mani in Life.